watching my fave movie, day after tomorrow.
trying to distract my mind from the reality of my life.
thinking of going for a run soon to attempt to lose the shitload of weight ive put on.
shitload = 2kg.
i feel so sick.
cant eat anything, including easter eggs, without nearly needing to vomit.
mum thinks its from the stress from last week.
maybe so.
dont know how the run is going to go considering i have barely any food in me.
chinese for dinner, im hoping to be able to slowly stomach that.
i have two boys.
one who ive just met who seems to like me, but doesnt give a fuck about seeing/talking to me.
the other is my ex, who still cares so much for me and is sneaking over tonight to make me feel better.
im not even focussing on this goddamn movie.
maybe ill head for a run now.